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I wanna be with you & makebelieve with you~
29 July 2014 @ 10:12 am



This guy right here? Sexy as hell when he sings the chorus the first time. Reminds me of the former Marine I had a nice encounter with like a month and a half ago. Ah, what a great memory. :)


I really like Chet Faker now. Been listening to him for 2 nights now. Not Sunday night because I was sleeping, but Saturday and last night/this morning.
 
 
I wanna be with you & makebelieve with you~
12 July 2014 @ 08:40 am
When my niece Mia looks at me she does so with such fascination. It amuses me. I don't know how to explain it, but I feel like one of those characters where they run off and everyone talks bad about them. Then they show up and the main character kid thinks they are cool and mysterious. If I was a fictional character then I imagine I would be driving a convertible bought by my latest lover and smoking cigarettes...

I don't even know if this is making sense. Hahaha. I wish I knew of a character to compare how I feel that I look like in her eyes.

She knows what has happened. Her parents have talked about it in front of her. And she has told Ivie things. Here I was this boring, frumpy dressed, and slightly chubby woman. I have this fling and disappear. I come back into her life and I'm skinny, have nice clothes, and I wear make up.

I really don't know if I'm making any sense at all. I'm going to sleep.
 
 
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10 July 2014 @ 09:09 pm
Life is so good right now. I'm where I want to be at work. Took me two years. Not to mention I'm full time with all those nice benefits. I received my first dividend check for the stock I didn't know I had not too long ago. $16 but it will only get better every 6 months. I get stock every 200 hours I work so that means pretty much once every 5 weeks. Actually, I didn't get my dividend check. He did, but whatever. I'll change my direct deposit on it to my bank account.

I was on anti-depressants for a little bit this year. Honestly, it was worth it. I stopped taking it about a month ago. A few weeks after things fell apart in a bad way and I decided to just let things go. Life became amazing and I am enjoying working on ME. My life.

The kids I live with are much more stressful than Ivie, but I love them to pieces. Calista is my favorite out of the two and I'm pretty open about it. We do special things together like shopping at Publix so she can get a sprinkle cookie. I spin her around in the shopping cart in the parking lot too. We like to call me "Daddy Leah" sometimes. I feel like a dad minus being male and that I have no romantic relationship with Sharleen(just no. I prefer guys).

Let me tell you how much I have come out of m shell with talking to guys. I used to be so shy when it came to them. Now it's like "hi! ;)" It's a lot of fun to flirt with men. I used to just flirt with guys I was comfortable around. It's a whole new ball game.

I miss my journal. I miss public entries. I hate drama. My life has had a lot of drama in it lately. I'm glad to see it gone. I'm glad to be living a free and happy life.
 
 
I wanna be with you & makebelieve with you~
27 June 2014 @ 09:04 pm
What's up bitches????

Guess who has internet at the place she's living at??? YEAH! ME!! Expect an actual update soon! Life has been CRAZY. I'm really happy :)

I have lost tons and tons of weight. It's crazy.

Right now I need to get ready for work since I'm working overnights...in my dream area HBC. YEAH BITCHES!! :)
 
 
I wanna be with you & makebelieve with you~
08 November 2013 @ 09:39 pm
It's okay that I'm having an emotionally hard time with Papa's death as long as I admit to it, right?
I mean...it hasn't even been a month.

Wednesday was my thirty second birthday!

With that it wasn't great. I had a stressful day at work...but I'm a grown up so I know it's going to happen.

Both the vehicles are broken. A mount BUSTED on the car today.

I feel like crap. I slept the majority of the day and still could sleep more!

Boys are idiots. All of them. Seriously. I don't even want to touch this subject.

I was able to get my bi-yearly evaluation at work on my birthday! I am now capped out for my job position. I need full time! And with that I just had my twelfth week of over time. Soon they will have to force me into a full time position!
 
 
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25 October 2013 @ 10:01 pm
The funeral home let us come see Papa tonight. It was a small gathering of my Meemaw, Aunt Diane, cousin Lara, Dad, Moona, Ivie, and me. I sobbed my eyes out and was the only one to do so. I fell apart and my Meemaw could only say "don't cry". I had to push her away because I NEEDED to cry.

My dad told me that it's okay that I'm grieving the way I am. That my grief hurts him more than Papa being gone. I told him I can't help it and that a customer told me that my grief is just my love. It was actually quite beautiful in what she said, but I can't remember.

Papa was very handsome. He looked better than he had in a long time. Plus there were two (artificial) ivy plants by his coffin. So he'll have ivy by him all night. Ivie was the light of his life.


It's still so hard to think that he's gone. It breaks my heart into a million pieces.
 
 
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17 October 2013 @ 06:58 am


Words cannot describe the pain I feel over losing you. With that I am extremely happy that you aren't suffering anymore. Seeing you suffer the way you did yesterday was the hardest part of saying goodbye.
 
 
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17 October 2013 @ 12:30 am
I haven't updated this thing as much as I should have since I started working at Publix. I just don't find the time to do it.

But I wanted to post tonight and say that my Papa(grandfather) passed away tonight.

I've had a crazy roller coaster day today. I'm happy I was able to say goodbye to him. I'm not happy that he had to suffer so long today.
 
 
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29 September 2013 @ 07:33 pm
Conversation with my old work bestie who moved away

Me: Do you have a new work bestie yet?
Him: Not Possible
Me: Yeah. Same here.
Him: I have been planning to rename two people leah and ryan(another old coworker and friend) and send you a pic

I miss the guy. We had so much fun together.
 
 
I wanna be with you & makebelieve with you~
21 September 2013 @ 06:49 pm
My store manager died this morning. I'm at a loss right now.